Someday my couch will have all its cushions on it and it will not perpetually look like this:
Someday my kitchen counters will actually feel smooth when I run my hands across them, they might actually be clean for more than 5 minutes.
Someday there will not be a giant pile of dirties next to my washer, there will be no muddy little people to accumulate said dirties.
Someday there will be quiet and calm here.
Someday the kids bathroom won’t smell like pee.
Someday I will have the time to sit and drink whole cups of coffee before they are cold.
Someday there won’t be a shoe around every single corner or permanent marker art on my wood floor.
Someday I won’t shop at Costco anymore or buy 500 pounds of beef at one time.
Someday I will (maybe) think about my outfits, my style and actually wear something not from Costco or the Goodwill – and it will stay clean on me for the whole day.
Someday I won’t find my hairbrush in the toilet because there will be no one here who would think to put it there.
Someday I will go for long walks, have time for daily Pilates and have time to exercise.
Someday I might drive a small, zippy, efficient vehicle.
Someday I will go weeks without uttering phrases like “show kindness please” and “take the craziness outside”.
Every season at least once, I ponder what my days will look like in a few years time. How this place will change and how different the issues and challenges will be that we each face. This season of training many littles is exhausting. But I am foolish to think that someday I won’t miss the loud, chaotic, crazy LOVE that spills from this home. Oh yes, love will still live here. But it won’t look the same, sound the same or feel quite the same as having my brood here, under my roof. So every morning I wake up and remind myself to live in the moment that is today – my chance to impact and imprint upon real, live people is today. Tomorrow is never guaranteed.
Honestly every day I am ridiculously thankful for my present, for my today. From the outside looking in I know it may seem nuts, this life, this way that we walk. And that’s okay. I would not trade it for any convenience, any comfort, any dose of ‘easy’. The riches are immeasurable,